Hows this for an update, Josh?? Well I guess I lied to you all because I said I was going to be good about writing in this frequently… I've been bad… I'll do better. Today I ran 11.5 miles…. that's right 11.5. The farthest I had ever run before today was 6 miles and that was like my freshman year. What I was even more impressed with was the fact that I did the whole stretch without stopping once…. No breaks…. Just solid running for the whole trip. It really wasn’t that bad at all… you know the saying “mind over matter”… well its all true… when I started getting tired, I just made myself keep going, when I wanted to take a rest, I made myself feel better… its really strange how your mind can do that. Now granted, I felt really worn out about the last mile or so, but I still made it. When we saw the car along ways off I said “I'll race you to the car” to my dad, and he was like “oh this isn't about a race” and the he kind of smiled and sped up like he was really going to try to beat me back (that's my dad, competitive to the end) I promptly started sprinting and beat him back by a good 20 seconds or so. I know he has me on distance because he usually runs 20 miles son Saturdays, but I needed to beat him at something. Let’s see what else…. Josh has demoted me on his website because I don’t update mine enough… well I don’t care!! You hear that josh? Don’t care. In fact I LIKE it at the bottom…
I got a 45 on my second organic chemistry test. Yes this is the test that I studied my butt off for. Yes that was the most studying I had ever done for any single thing in my entire life. Do you know how depressing that is? To put everything you have into something and fail… its not all over yet, but it looks like you aren't going to see me for awhile because I have to go for an overkill (of studying) on this next test… I need like… a 90. I guess that's possible on an organic test? It seems like they probably have a file on me that says- give Scott a bad grade no matter how well he does… because its just Scott and we can't go off and start giving him good grades in the most important class of his pre-pharmacy career. – Oh well… I got a 185 dollar check from work the other day… AND my check from the Gov’ment came in today too… that means I’m sitting on like 400 dollars here… most money I have had in awhile… I guess I'll just deposit it all. I need to get a checking account because whenever I want money, I have to go during bank (9-4) hours and fill out a savings withdrawal form… that gets old.
I ran into one of my female friends I hadn't seen in awhile and her roommate, and this was the girl that supposedly thought I was cute or had a crush on me or something. Its funny because I thought she was someone else (a little lower on the attractive scale) so like this whole time I was like… “well I’m flattered and all (whenever her friends would tell me that she “dug” me), but I just don’t know” Not that I am a 100% looks person, but it’s a factor, you know? I saw her tonight, and I was like… “You’re _______??” totally different person…. Perhaps I should like ask her to do something? I don't know… I’m definitely at a point right now in my life where I don’t feel like I am anywhere close to as desperate as I have been in the past so I don’t need to be just going on dates with the first girl that seems to like me… but she seemed ok… I mean… my heart didn’t start racing or anything, but she seemed cool…. I don't know. I'll need to see her again just to totally verify that she is the person I think she is and not just some other one of their friends with the same name… oh well….
Josh, Todd, and I are going to see “The Pianist”… should be a blast… i used to play the piano you know… 8 whole years! 8 years with 2 (and sometimes 3) recitals a year. I hated doing those… too much pressure for my little fat self (yeah those were my fat years). I actually spent an entire year learning “Sonata Pathatique”, by Beethoven… (it’s a decently tough song) and I totally screwed up on it when it finally came time for me to perform it at the recital. I remember crying about it (hey give me a break… I spent a whole year on just one song!) and thinking my parents would be disappointed in me… I don’t know why I thought that, but it seemed to make sense at the time. My dad told me later how proud he was of me and I felt better. Later that night my parents friends from church came over to our house and we were all three waiting there for my parents to get back from somewhere. These are people who really liked me and normally came to my recitals (I also babysat their children). They had missed the recital that day, and I had told them I felt really bad about my playing that day and they asked if I would play the piece for them… “ok” I said… I sat down, and played the best run through I had ever played, just letting all of my emotion flow out, all my disappointment fueling me. They clapped, and I felt so much better. Not really because of their applause, but because I knew that I COULD do it. I felt that I had redeemed myself from earlier that day.

Ok Scott is tired of writing now, so I’m going to get out of here… Catch you later!