Yellow. Scott Here. Well I’m going to finally get back to writing some stuff here… its been awhile as you can probably tell from the last post date. I’m pretty tired right now… 3rd day of class… didn’t get enough sleep last night… but it’s cool because class is over for the weekend and that makes me happy. I have to go to work tomorrow… rather I GET to go work at my ever so cool weekend job where I just have to put up with a few random old people who couldn’t see their doctors for prescriptions during the week. Its really pretty nice… I just get to kind of stand around and socialize with the pharmacist for 9 hours (minus one 20-30 minute taco-bell break)… I mean… it gets boring, but it can be ok. I think I’m with Tom tomorrow. He just graduated about a year or two ago so he is still very college-person like if that makes sense. The only real difference between me and him is about 4 more years of school and about 75,000 dollars a year… but that's it.

I just wrote about a page or so on my feeling bummed about being single… but that's just dumb so I deleted that… I think I’m just hungry and tired so my thoughts will tend to drift towards the negative. I feel good, I’m happy, I’m healthy and I have lots of great friends and family who care about me. I don’t have any excuse feeling sorry for myself or thinking that I don’t have a great life. I’m so glad I got to do the Bluecoats thing this summer. Its just funny how now that its over, I don’t have anything big like that to anticipate anymore. I can remember lots of times last year where I started to feel a little down about something, and I would just think- “no its ok… you get to go with the Bluecoats this summer. Cheer up!” and I would… and that worked great. I think what I need right now is something to look forward to, something to be my goal, something to invest my emotional energy in… because, for me at least, when you can't get that stuff out… it starts to “build up” if you will and come out in other ways… like “bla bla bla I’m sad… girls don’t like me” or something like that. I’ve always been a person of goals, ambitions, and targets… ever since I lost 50 lbs back in 10th grade. Without goals I feel very unmotivated… almost purposeless.

Josh is coming up today, which should be fun. He and Jesse need to spend some time together because I know she will be sad when he is gone. This is just one of those tough times they will have to get through, and I have no doubt that they will. I need to get some sleep,… I’ve got lots more to write, including some stories about tour that I should be posting on my webpage in a few weeks so look out for that… also I'll be adding lots of pictures from this summer so check that out too. I just need to get the pictures from Todd and he is having trouble sending them to me with his connection at FHU. He seems to be having a great time there and I’m glad to see he is fitting in so well. Its must be a tough thing to switch colleges, especially when you have two years invested at your first one.

Ok… now I’m taking a nap… I think… well I am kind of hungry… maybe I'll eat first? I need to get more food… later!- Scott