selfish?

Yo. Things are going well still—I’m working Wed/Thursday/Saturday to round out this week… stocks are going crazy right now—whatever other words were being used to describe the current conditions, they have mostly changed to “crisis” or some variation. Stocks are down over 20% in the last month- crazy. Kinda GLAD that Target doesn’t let me start contributing to my 401k until 6 months of work!

I just got my iPod connection for my car today—that’s sweet. I love being able to listen to Pandora radio, and other high-quality internet radio’s while I’m driving—often I’ll hear songs I like but don’t (yet) have in my library. I’ve been blowing through money much faster than I would like in the last few months--- I’m chalking it up to being in a new house and just more or less getting everything off and running- I’ve always had a pretty easy time of knowing what I want and so a lot of this has just been me going out and getting everything lined up, so to speak—My living situation as far as things I “need” in terms of goods and services (my membership to ‘anytime fitness’ in hermitage would fall under ‘services’) is entering into a state of what I’d call ‘complete’… and I use the word “need” very loosely… actually “want” would fit much better… The nice thing is that being a single entity- I can make decisions such as “ipod car cable > bed frame” and as long as I’M happy with it- everything’s fine! It’s kinda awesome how that works—I don’t report to anybody- I don’t need anyone’s permission- I don’t have to run any of my decisions by anybody else… In a sense, it’s a selfish way to live- but to truly be selfish; you have to put YOUR wants over those of someone else- and I’m not. It’s perhaps best I don’t grow TOO accustomed to this state of living knowing that to be the Christian husband and father I hope to be at some point down the road- I’ll need to behave much more selfLESSly and elevate the wants of my family over my own personal needs- hmmm.