"i wanna know where da gold at"

Yellow… Scott’s here… well- tests are over- I’m finally getting over the emotional wave that has been the mainstay of the ends of pharmacy school semesters so far… this one has been just as bad as all the other ones… this therapeutics thing is just getting me right now… I haven't slept very well at all the last 2 nights just because I lay in bed worrying about it… I think I did fine, I think I probably even did well enough to have a couple points cushion (test points, that is, not cumulative points!)… I just always seem to cut things close… but I just don’t know… there were 3 questions I really thought I had right that I’ve since found out were not right (they were really tricky and stupid… ‘suspect’ would be a good word for how I feel about those…)… but he decided to make 3 other questions that I got right BONUS- so that covers for the 3 more that I know I missed… (this is out of 89 questions, mind you)… he is going to post the final grades tomorrow and as SOON as I see that I’m going to be able to exhale… i’m still holding my breath right now… its not unlike that time I really needed to make an A in my microbiology class to get the GPA I needed for pharmacy school… and I knew I either barely had the A or was just one point short… its like that… I know I either got it (C) or its going to be REALLY close… UGH… I’ve actually felt sick to my stomach the last 2 days worrying about it… I think there is a big misconception about comparing “professional school” (pharmacy, medical, dental, Law… ) to “grad school” (getting your masters in something—I think PhDs are probably too different to really compare so I wont go there)… the one big difference (this based on talking to people who have got their masters)… you really have to FIGHT for your life to get the grades… test averages are usually in the high 70s (Example- kinetics average class grade for the first test was 73.6, therapeutics average for the first test was 77.52… - that’s straight from our online grade program that tells what all the averages for tests are and what not…)(that’s a C, folks)… this is not a situation where everyone is walking around saying “so did you get 5 As and 1 B or just all 6 As? Now I’m not for one second going to make a comparison about who of the two has to WORK harder for the degree—I don’t know enough to comment on that so it would be ignorant for me to do so-- but what I will say is that… when class averages are in the upper (or lower) 70s, you don’t get the same “yeah my grades are way better than undergrad” comparison which I’ve heard made several times coming from that setting… actually… since we’ve been here- people have gotten their first Bs and first Cs of their entire lives! Isn’t that nuts?—I kind of feel sorry for them! (I would not be one of those people)… and its not like I’m talking to or about anyone who is or was in grad school—I just might have been tempted to group all of those things together as being the same if I didn’t know better- and now I do—and so now you do too.

Now there are those who do really well, don’t get me wrong… I live with one actually… its just that’s not really what I would call the “norm” at all…

But its gonna be cool—i’d say I’m not worried, but I am some- but I’m worried about the outcome of the test that I think is less likely to be the case… so I think that’s a good situation to be in… I know it’ll work out. Don’t stress out on my account- I’ve got it under control.