avian flu and you...

so things are good... in general... school is grinding up to be a blast, and by a blast i mean... its grinding up... there is no light at the end of the tunnel yet... i know there will be, but i cant see it yet... its just alittle foggy right now… I wouldn't say I’m lost in it… I can see the trail… its just a little misty… kind of in a cloud… (enough analogies for you?) so yeah… but its looking good. I’m honestly scared to be starting our applied therapeutics course at the hospital… I just don’t know if I’m ready to be grilled by a preceptor just yet, but I don’t really have a choice. I think I’ll do fine… but I’m definitely not in the top 20% of the class, and I guess that’s no biggie… I don’t know if I ever really have been at any point in my educational career so I guess that’s not new. I mean… I know some good drug stuff… its just TOTALLY a “the more you know the more you know that you don’t know anything” kind of situation… I cant think of a better way to put it. I don’t even feel about talking about drugs any more. It was a blast last year when I thought I knew a lot but there is just so much out there… so many people who are so good at lots of things. Its intimidating really. I’ll be fine… yeah I’m good… my friend arien called me tonight and we talked for a little while, he has a really dry sense of humor… its funny… he likes to ask me random questions sometimes… so he was like:

“so who are you hanging out with now? I haven't seen you in awhile” and I was like… ummm… I guess I’ve been hanging out with… myself really

“what about ryan?” (roommate)

Oh he’s really reclusive, won’t even really talk to me much anymore…but we make small talk sometime, its not as bad as it was during finals last semester

“dave?” (other roommate)

Ohhh… his girlfriend has been living here at the house with us since the beginning of December and he is usually in his room with her with the door closed… kind of hard to talk to

“what about all those P-1s you hung out with last semester?”

Ohhh they kind of do their own thing now and have been going out to bars and stuff… not really my scene…

“oh sorry dude… so who is your best friend in pharmacy school now?” (another one of his funny questions)

Uhhh… I guess you and ryan and dave are all kind of just a collage of close friends I suppose…

And there is nothing wrong with that… really! Its just that things have settled down a lot from the fairy tale land of being close friends with everyone at the same time and whatnot. I think that’s just kind of a natural transition from undergrad to- whatever comes after undergrad. I know it probably sounds like I’m complaining, but I’m really not. I’m just taking notice to what I think is just probably just a natural transition of young adulthood. There seem to be a lot of people getting married, and you know… like I really never thought when I was in high school, or even undergrad that everyone would be getting married so early… my parents were 27 and 29 when they got married and I think maybe that’s what I figured the default age was, you know? I was just talking to sara (who is married) when she was helping me with my window display project and I looked at the composite and saw a girl that I was talking to last week… and I was like “hey sara, is ___ single?” and sara said, “oh no, she’s married”… and I was just like… wow.... that’s several degrees away from single… yikes! And she was like “why do you ask?” and I was like “oh I just didnt know if she was married or not”… cause I mean… you just kind of talk to married people a little differently… you know? Like I probably wouldn't go in for the hug if a girl was married, I mean, you just don’t want to risk that being akward… ok- anways!- I’m cutting this short… time for sleep… I’ll hollatcha!