looking in the mirror

i just got dont talking to a female friend of mine... she just learned that her ex boyfriend from last semester had just moved on and was seeing another girl in their pharmacy class... and we are all mutual friends... and i feel so bad for her. She is such a happy bubbly person and to see her down is just so not natural... and it was interresting because i knew exactly how she felt since i found out this past week that mandy has been seeing someone since christmas break .. and we (the pharmacy girl and i) got to talk about it alot... and just to see her going through some of those same things that i went over in my head afew days ago... some of those things are just normal i think. she kept wondering what was wrong with her, and doubting herself... and it was so plain to see from my perspective how, well... silly that was because she is a great girl with absolutely nothing wrong with her... and to think that i burdon myself with those same rediculous doubts about myself... and i let it get me down all the time, and its just dumb. i could just tell how it just absouletly crushed her spirits in so many ways... and how she went to go play her piano to think about things... and i played the piano every single day i was back for christmas break... not that it helped, but its expression in some form... she is going though some of the things i'm trying to recover from... and the guy hasnt really done anything wrong... i mean its an unfortunate situation that they will have to see eachother every day, and that the new girl was a mutual friend... but he is doing what he feels is best, and he is following his heart and its plain to see that there really is no fault in that. they broke up back in october, and he has waited this long... seeing all this, and feeling what i feel, it really does make me wonder what the guy who said "tis better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" was smokin... is that one of those things you realize is true when you're 60? I guess it just depends on what side of the situation you are on and how you respond to the demise of love... no doubt it could be a great thing if you can move on promptly... but you know... ever since, i think 10th grade of highschool i have had such a hard time moving on from things... i went a year feeling depressed about a girl named Rose and we "dated" for all of 2 1/2 months... i really went for about a year... after only that amount of time... ? man i gotta work on that... i mean... i've probably got several more years to go before its time for me to get hitched but i've gotta work on this because "moving on" is probably one of my weakest points in the relationship picture... and those of you who know me well know this to be true... josh and jesse... remember when we were in the bunk beds in reese- me on the top one, and you guys down under and we just layed there and a depressed-about-girls 19 year old me said something like "what if i'm 25 years old before this love thing ever really works out for me??"... i remember it like it was yesterday... and hey... i've only got one more year to go! how about that? i know its all gonna be fine... i know that i am a REALLY nice guy, i always have been, and i always will be. I know that i'm funny... mean... when i can cut loose, i can hang with the best on that, and i know it. I know that i'm gonna be a great husband, a great dad, and a great christian leader of my family... no doubt in my mind, honestly... I know that i have awesome qualities that girls find attractive and whatnot... i think the "delivery" is just where i dont really show it...