MI, what a big heart you have...

business as usual on this Monday... one of my teachers actually had an MI (myocardial infarction) in class last week... he used it for a teaching experience... we talked about his symptoms, and why he had them, and then he asked us to tell him what 5 drugs he was discharged on from the hospital after he had a cardiogram (not electrocardiogram, i mean a real cardiogram), angioplasty, and drug-eluding stent placed in one of the vessels around his heart... and we told him what drugs he needed and that was exactly what he got... so that ruled... maybe we are learning something after all...

"i dont usually bring religion into the classroom... but i feel like this is God's way of giving me a second chance... if it had been afew degrees worse, there is a good chance that i wouldn’t be alive right now... i'm going to be a different person by the end of the semester with the lifestyle changes that i'm putting into place"... it was cool. I'm happy for him.

he also said
"i'm a pretty smart guy (its true, he literally wrote the book on the pharmacotherapy for toxicology) and i knew my risk factors, and i knew i had afew little problems... but i'm also pretty stupid because i never did anything about it...." and so true... he said that you can know all the risk factors and know all the ways to prevent having heart problems, but unless you actually LIVE it, it profits you nothing... so true. and i think its so obvious how that works on many levels... faith without works is dead. preparation without delivery is worthless...

i think to really deal with some kinds of problems, you have to totally just break everything down before you can work on rebuilding... i mean... we've had several building implosions around here in memphis, and i think thats what getting over a relationship is like, atleast to me... whereas i was taking a wrecking ball and trying to punch holes in my "building" so that i can start over... i was still leaving a big part of the structure intact... really!... i think it took her telling me that she is now close friends with the one guy on this earth i dislike above just about anyone else (for his repeated attempts at splitting us up... i'm really not cool with that... ), and that she had been seeing another guy in knoxville for a month... for me to really put up the dynamyte, light the fuse, and let it all come crashing down, and i dont really mean that in a negative way, but its destruction for the purpose of construction... i've just got one plot of land, and there is no way you are going to be able to start building a new, shiny building on this property if the first three stories are still standing from the last one... it just doesnt make sense... the building is down, and my trucks are hauling away the debris... its not an overnight thing, but i'm plugging away at it now instead of just kinda sitting on my butt and expecting the world to revolve around me... its not all about me...