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Well… if you guys aren't going to blog, I will!

Things are good right now. I had a great time at the MTSU show although I was feeling a little stressed out with the working, driving, and studying that was before and after the show… but everything worked out great. Only 361 till the MTSU show in 2005! Pharmacy school is knock knock knocking on my door (in a figurative way) and I wish it would get off me and let me relax and enjoy my summer a little more! I have talked to many pharmacists about their pharmacy school experience and the only answer I get is that it is really difficult, you never feel caught up, and they just don’t like to recall the many nights of stressful studying they had to do just to get by… but other than that… piece of cake!... there is no sense in me worrying about it because I am going to do it, and that’s that… this would, of course, be another one of the many situations where worrying about something doest help. It’s just that fear of the unexpected- like I know its going to be hard, but I don’t REALLY know how its going to be… there are going to be a TON of new people not to mention the fact that I don’t really know anyone (besides “The Orrs” – Garret and Marry-Jo)… I did OK with the bluecoats in meeting new people, and by doing OK I mean, I kept to myself all through the winter camps, nobody really knew my name for the first 4 weeks of the summer, and it was only the last month or so that I really loosened up enough to be approachable… so yeah… I could definitely improve on my meeting new people skills… I am just shy I guess. I will do fine; I hear that it’s really easy to make friends in pharmacy school because there are 125 of you that are more or less in the same class all 4 years… so you really get close. I am really looking forward to some things and just apprehensive about the rest. At least the one thing I am for sure about is where I am going and what I am going to do when I get there- which I think is probably about 90% of getting somewhere in this world. It has always seemed like I have been able to know what I want and I like that about me. Mandy also said that that was one of the things that she liked about me when we were first talking. She liked that I had a vision of where I was going to be and I knew what I had to do to get there… So, Jesse… I think I really am a good planner, just maybe not for other people!