this month in "scott"

briefly:

my typical day this month is:
7:20 walk out back door
7:40 arrive at methodist hospital (about a 20 minute walk for me)
work up new, check up on same cardiology patients
9:30 meet with resident, discuss patients- given tasks to look up/complete specific to who we are following
12-1: either eat lunch with a friend, or as is the case 3/5 days this week- we have someone giving a 1-hour lecture on a drug topic so I'll get something and go sit in a big class room of people in white coats and try to eat something while they are talking and power-pointing
1:30ish: meet with resident and preceptor- go over patients again- get asked questions about their drug therapy/disease states- followed by a 1-hour topic discussion on a cardiology subject...
3:30- go complete any tasks from preceptor (usually something along the lines of 'go look in the chart to see if they drew a level for this antibiotic' or 'find out why they were taken off their anti platelet meds- do we need to restart them?'...
4:20-4:40 walk back home... actually i left at 4:00 the other day thinking i was done and got a call around 5 from my resident who thought i was/should have been/still there doing stuff... but she was cool about it- and it was nothing important- i just got the feeling that this wouldn't be one of those "get out an hour early once a week" kinda rotations... which is good though... its actually very challenging (like i feel like my brain hurts when i get home)- but i really do like a good challenge... i perform well under pressure...well... sometimes... i think i do?

and i gotta tell ya- after all that walking (to methodist, and around the floors all day [my people are spread out all over the place...and its a big hospital], and back) i'm usually beat! and when 10:30 rolls around... i'm actually really tired! and thats odd for me because usually it takes until about 1am for me to get that feeling... but yeah... right now... i'm just past tired... and i've still got about 20 pages of reading to do for our topic discussion tomorrow... thats the one thing that always gets me about this rotation stuff... if it were just a 7:30-4:30 job, I don't think it would stress me out that much... I think its all the extra assignments to do at night that I'm really going to be happy to ditch come graduation... its like an all-day deal with this stuff- you can't stop thinking about it- it just stays in your brain no matter what you're doing... and somehow in all this i'm supposed to go to church, exercise, and maybe even carry on some kind of meaningful relationship with somebody (luckily for me that last one isn't the case right now) at the same time? i need to start doing coffee...

sorry for whining... i guess its just AMAZING how incredibly long and impossible "3 more months" feels to me right now... its like some of the (3) half marathons i've run... you get to mile 11.5 and you're pumped because you're so close to the end, but every step seems to drain you and you don't know how you're going to make it- and those last 10 minutes feel twice as long as the 45 minutes you spent getting to that point...

i'm gonna make it though- don't you worry-